Hurt

I had lunch with a dear friend today; it was good to catch up on things and to spend some time before I venture into the unknown that comes with a new place and a new job. I am excited about the possibilities that exist there. Blair, a wonderful friend indeed… She has a knack at making me feel special even when the reality is I am not so sure.
As our conversation progressed it came to light that a gentleman that will go unnamed has told some people that I am a bunch of things that well just are not true. And if there were any truth in it, it was quickly smothered by the embellishments of this unnamed individual. Okay, honestly, this does not bother me, the part that bothers me is that people, with whom I assumed I was a friend with, were the only contact that I had with this person. These were people that at various times in my life I have trusted with my struggles, my hurts, my joys, etc. And it is these people; two to be exact, that divulged parts of my life that I would just assume be left within the conversations they were a part of.
It is so painful, to find out that people whom you loved and considered friends do this to you. This has been the trend lately, from “friends” in BR and the surrounding areas. They tend to gossip and spread malicious things about people all in the context of “we need to pray for him because…” This is sickening, and people wonder as to why no one wants to be a part of a church, why they reject christianity (note the little “c”). They reject what they believe to be the truth, because what they see is nothing but a shell of people with their own ideas and interpretations as to what being Christian is all about. It is these people who hurt others and lay out daggers that pierce beyond healing. That pierce so deep they cause a physical aching that seems unbearable.
I say all of this not to warrant some sense of pity, but to just reiterate what my friend Ashley said her blog earlier today. Thanks Teeny for those words of wisdom. They have truly played out in my life today; I can always count on people like her. This I am sure of!